Dear Joss Whedon: I’m Sorry.

If you know me, you know that I’m a huge fan of Joss Whedon. Buffy the Vampire Slayer is the show  that sculpted my career path as a composer (thanks to Joss and composer Christophe Beck, who gets his own blog post soon). I have one tattoo on my body; a wooden stake through a heart on my right arm, and it’s because of the impact Joss’ show had on my life. I was a big fan of Angel, loved Firefly (and Serenity), so a few years ago, when I heard Joss was creating a new show, I was beyond excited.  I watched the pilot the night it came on.

And I hated it.

I don’t remember my reasons at the time, I just remember not liking the characters, the plot, the pacing. I was unhappy and never watched another episode. I may have been influenced by the person I was watching it with at the time, who also didn’t care for it. I was disappointed that I didn’t like it. I tracked the ratings and saw the show get canceled after two short seasons, and then put it out of my mind.

A few weeks ago, I was adding shows to my Netflix queue, and came across both seasons of Dollhouse. Allie asked what it was about, and as I explained the plot, I found myself intrigued, so I added it and we watched the pilot. And then a funny thing happened.

I liked it. A LOT. In fact, I kind of loved it.

Allie turned to me when it was over and asked me why I didn’t like it the first time around, and I didn’t have an answer for her. The characters were engaging, the story arc had me hooked, the dialogue was classic Joss. Then we watched another. And another. And another. It reminded me of the first time I watched Serenity; I was in love with the characters after only a few episodes. The score for Dollhouse fit perfectly (thanks to Mychael Danna), there were no plotholes that I could find.

We’re at the end of the first season (2 eps left), and I’m excited to keep barreling through. I’m also sad that there are only two seasons to watch, so I’m savoring every minute of it.

So I want to apologize to Joss for not giving his show a chance when it came on. For being close-minded and short-sighted in his vision to create a new world. The next time around, I won’t make that mistake again.